E- Motion

It is amazing. So much has happened over the past weeks. So much madness. And the first thing i put aside was the ability to get it all out. To emote on canvas. Why is it that when the darkness calls it calls so delftly that i listen to it and not to my own voice. There is a line which draws itself amongst those who wish to leave the dark. That line was etched tonight, begun this morning. And finally with moments before I am called to a job assigment I would rather banish, I threw myself onto my canvas and cried out the colors inside. I do not care if this painting is well received by anyone other than my ownself. This painting is the real reason I can survive, it lets me vomit all the bleakness into an abyss of new beginnings. There is still madness, but at least it is not bigger than me. thank god for painting. again and again.