naked

naked

my goal. to paint a simple painting. 2 colors. one flat one strong. simple. easy. it was exactly how i was feeling when i got called to it. 1 brush, 1 pallet knife. boom - you are done.
now.
18 brushes later. 4 crazy different knives and paint everywhere i can't even remember what the vision was in my head i started off with. all i know is now my studio table is a mess and i can't believe what frustration the most simple painting has caused me. although i have to admit i would only allow myself this sort of frustration because i am already so deeply in love with this painting. i love how one side is so flat and the other side has so much goin on in it. that is so indiciative. it is perfect. it is truly honest. it is truly naked. this painting is going to be called, "naked". i think i am going to force myself to finish this paintng. because as i have learned about myself so far. i could paint on one painting forever. literally for an eternity. so toinght i am pulling a force quit. its time for round one to end. big love to you. painting. and good night.

ah the pleasure of madness...

or, please! just let me be mad! i was watching a movie on salvador dali tonight. As i glazed over one of the clips, my eyes met his and i felt the supreme joy of chaos and free madness being allowed to fly. i whished i had the time just to be that mad. it seems such a daunting task to maintain the madness and the freeness of it all when daily tasks and chores keep getting in the way.
website building
moving paintings
cooking dinner
washing the dishes in the communal washroom
laundry
shows
another job
mailing lists
meet and greet
selling
marketing
organizing.
where can i fit the madness in. oh and
painting. must not forget that one.
ok. back to painting.
paintingpaintingpainting
painting.
hell yeah.
thank god there is painting!